its just me.

i'm going to leave school early.
and go have lunch with my dear son.
and meeting sean later.
sean, please get the flithy cockroach away please!
thank you very much.

i think miss sheryl koh.
the love of my life.
broke my heart into a gazillion pieces.
cause she didn't reply my messages.
and we were supposed to go to school together.
and our weekly date.
and the pretty photoblog!
you left me all alone!

can i say,
that i,
am really really,
proud of my son.
jared!
who is going to perform tonight.
ok.
later.
and i'm meeting him later for lunch.
yum yum.
and sorry jared.
i can only give you the money like.
next week?
after i get my pay.
alright?
thank you very much.

i have to accompany miss jane for an interview with aswyn.
oooh!
i'm going to be working with miss jane!
whoopie!
i get to bully her.
cause i'm already considered senior staff.
haha.
and by the way.
nessa was high at work.
but jo the mad bitch isn't there.
i think.
that everyone who works there.
is vulgar.
and 90% of them smoke.
haha.
miss jane!
don't be like them!

i'm not going to post a song today.
i'm going to post something from the diary of my loved one.

and then i ask you,
why did you put up these walls?
why is it that no one can touch your heart?
you keep it so guarded from everyone out there.
you said that it is to protect yourself.
but why do you keep yourself from feeling whole?
you said,
cause i don't deserve happiness.
and i asked you why not.
and its all because you've suffered.
forced to grow up before your time.
see your parents forced apart.
and then you said that you don't deserve to be loved.
you're the one keeping yourself.
hiding yourself.
fuck.
can't you see that i love you damnit?
you're afraid to be broken.
when you already are.
so whats keeping you from letting me make you whole?
whats keeping you from me?